As I sit here, I can’t help but be overcome by how different this Wednesday is from last week, and even more so from the week before. In a two-week timeframe our lives have been turned upside down and we are living in new, uncharted territory.
I can’t begin to understand how COVID-19 has affected you and the people you love, and I feel at a loss for words.
I know that my life looks different as we are home-bound and home-schooling in a 14-day quarantine. I see my husband’s work shut down because of exposure to the virus. I see people I love facing financial hardship and physical hardship and there is a deep strain on all of our mental and emotional well-being.
To me it has felt like the amount uncertainty is increasing every day and our ability to control is decreasing every day.
It feels like chaos.
And chaos unsettles me. It makes me afraid. It stokes my anger and shortens my fuse. It makes me feel like I am in the dark.
But then I remember that what is darkness to me is not darkness to God.
At the beginning of time, He pulled light from the darkness and created order out of disorder and life out of nothingness.
I think of David’s song to God:
12. Even the darkness is not dark to You, but the night shines like the day…
For the darkness is as light to you.
This truth doesn’t change my physical reality, but it does comfort my soul and bring peace before my eyes.
My prayer for each of you today, wherever you find yourself, is that you might find peace in your dark moments and assurance that God is not threatened, afraid, overwhelmed or far away.
He hovered above the darkness in the beginning of time and does now, too.
He is near, and hears your call for help.
May these words by Brian McLaren serve as a prayer to sustain you:
“When we call out for help,
we are bound more powerfully to God through our needs and weakness, our unfulfilled hopes and dreams, and our anxieties and problems
than we ever could have been through our joys, successes, and strengths alone.”
Love and peace to each of you,